Saturday, December 3, 2011

blossom of snow... bloom and grow





Listen while you read <3 :) sung by The Honey Trees... some of my favorite artists

I cannot believe that in a little over a month I will be welcoming the most beautiful gift into my family... a sweet baby girl. Some of you know how much of a roller coaster the past 8 months have been for me and my family. You have cried with me, comforted me, and loved me more than I could ever have imagined. It took me a few months to even accept the fact that my sweet girl was actually inside me. I kept blocking it, thinking that at any time I would lose her... and if I never grew attached then maybe, just maybe, it would not be as hard to say goodbye. With so many hospital visits, miscarriage scares, blood work... it was hard just to go day to day and be normal. I felt like I had to show up at weddings and shoots so perky and excited when all I wanted to do was stay in bed, curled up, waiting and praying she would make it.

I have to say that I have been blessed with an amazing family through all of this. My hubby was always by my side, drawing me late night baths and snuggling away my fears. My mom was the worrier who would drop anything in a minute's notice to come sit and talk with me. My baby girl Havie was my biggest cheerleader, always making me smile when life seemed dreary. And my sweet baby sister Christen was the one who kept saying "SIT DOWN! SIT DOWN" during every wedding and shoot... always afraid she would push me too hard. I could not have made it the past few months without them, my sweet blessings.

Through all of the craziness, I still tucked my daughter in bed every night and she would ask me to sing her two songs "Moon River" and "Edelweiss"... my two favorite songs. Both remind me in so many ways of my meemaw, so simple and so beautiful. My parents/ grandparents always raised us on a love for all things classic. Who does not love Breakfast at Tiffany's with the great Audrey singing Moon River? And if you have never seen the Sound of Music with the young lovely Julie Andrews then go see it now... When they sing Edelweiss at the end, I ALWAYS cry. Anyways, I was singing Edelweiss to haven one night and felt such a sweet joy and comfort in my life. All of the fear of losing my little girl was for that moment replaced with thoughts of seeing her and Haven grow up together, best friends... fighting over the front seat of the car, stealing each other's clothes, having late night chats, playing Barbies and fighting over the most handsome Ken, being in each other's weddings, becoming kindred spirits. I could almost see her snuggled with me and Haven, just giggling and singing along with us and I felt complete. I knew that no matter what happened tomorrow or the day after... if God would allow her to come live with us or if He would rather her sit on His lap in Heaven, I knew that she was my adelveis. The name adelveis {edelweiss} literally means noble whiteness and the words of the song fit it so perfectly.
Edelweiss Edelweiss
Every morning you greet me
Small and White Clean and Bright
You look happy to meet me
Blossom of Snow may you bloom and grow
Bloom and grow forever
Edelweiss Edelweiss
Bless my homeland forever
Haven and I sung those words that night and we sung them for her, our little adelveis... so small and clean and perfect... blooming and growing daily inside me. And so, I want to introduce you to my perfectly clean and bright daughter number 2 Adelveis. At our workshop in October, we literally threw together this little shoot of Haven, me and Adelveis. The pictures with Haven and the guitar are literally her "playing" while she sings the song. I just stepped back and cried... she was so beautiful in that moment, playing to her sister. It was by far one of the moments in my life that I will cherish forever... and I was able to share it with 12 amazing photographer friends. Thank you ladies for the pictures and being part of such an amazing time in my life. I cannot wait for all of you to meet her and snuggle with her in person. Haven loves all of you already and I know her baby sister will too!


ps, special shout outs to the following photographers... go look them up and love them because we sure do :)
Christina Block Photography
Jessica {Oh!} Photography
Up in the Sycamore Photography
Julie Paisley Photography
DeAnna McCasland Photography
Nikki Krecicki Photography
Jen Snyder Design
and of course
Sassyfras Studios {Cryssi!} :)


























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1 comment:

  1. What a beautiful post! Just know that happy vibes, hugs, and love are always sent your way (even when I don't say it). xx <3